Busy busy life

Life has been so hectic, I just haven't had time to post! But as of this morning I was 262.8!! I had a fill last Wednesday. I know have 5cc's in my band. I can tell, but in a very good way. NSV:  when I went to the waiting room at the surgeon, I can sit in the regular people chairs! So exciting! 

This first picture is May 1, 2013. The second picture is July 10, 2013. 

I really have to kick it into gear, because me in laws are taking my husband and I to Panama City Beach the week of Labor Day. My goal is to lose 20lbs by then.

Another NSV and TMI, my husband said when we lay down, his arm feels weird, because its not as high up because my hips have shrunk! 

Now, time for more pictures!

These were on July 4th. I can already tell the difference in my face since then!

First NSV

Last night, my husband and I went to the gym. I watched Nik Wallenda walk over the Grand Canyon as I was on the elliptical, and cried when he made it. Afterwards, I was getting on different machines, really trying to push myself. I looked over at this leg lift machine, that really frightens me.

I first tried it May 1st, the day we joined the gym and met with a personal trainer. He wanted me and Willie to get on this thing and lift our legs as many times as we could. Willie got on it, and did it 12 times. I got up there...it was a disaster. I could barely dangle without a problem. Actually, just dangling was too tough for me. I cried as I stepped down, embarrassed. At that time, (before surgery) I was almost 300lbs. Now, down 26lbs I decided I would try it again. And I did...I was able to dangle, and lift my legs to my chest 3 times! I went over to my husband and told him. He was so proud. I told him I wanted to show him. He got on there first, and did it 15 times, and I did 4 times!!! 

It may not sound like the biggest NSV, but I was so embarrassed the first time, I really want to conquer it, and this is the first step in the right direction. I really want to call that personal trainer and show him, because even though I couldn't afford the $200 a month his fee required, he calls us and checks in on us every once and a while, and even offers to meet for free. I think he would be proud.

Friday Weigh In!

I figured out how to post pictures. Here is my weigh in from today. I think Friday will be my official weigh in day, and today is also 6 weeks post op. 

This is a 2.6lb loss, just since my fill on Wednesday. Down 26lbs since surgery. 

Getting excited about this weekend. Tomorrow, Willie and I are going fishing early. Then, tomorrow night we are going to the drive-in to see Monster's University and Iron Man 3. We already saw Iron Man, but it's only 5 dollars a person at the drive-in, and a double feature. Totally worth it!

Willie weighed himself last night. He weighs 279.8. Down 18lbs since, I had surgery! Not really fair, but I am glad we are doing this together. It makes food decisions a lot easier. We don't eat like we used to at all. I don't see how we would go to Krystal's and get 24 krystal's...and eat them! It's ridiculous. But, we gained together, we will lose together. One thing though, at least I weigh less than he does. Even when we were smaller, I always weighed more than he did. I may only be 7lbs smaller, but it counts!!

July 26th I am doing the Glow Run for a "bridesmaid" get together for my friend Ginger. I am actually really excited about it. It's a night at a local baseball stadium, and I think it's like The Color Run, only with glow paint! Our team name is "Glow On Wit Ya Bad Self!" Ginger thought of it, pretty clever!

I hope my feet start losing weight, and these weigh in pictures can look a little better.

Post First Fill, Day One

I am doing pretty good so far, post fill. I am happy about this, since DeWitt was so concerned.  He di say it may be 48 hours before I feel the full effect of it, but I already can tell I am not near as hungry. Yesterday I just sipped tea, and ate some FroYo. This morning I had coffee and for lunch I had about half of a Chicken and Mini Noodles Soup To Go. Only half, not because I am full, but because it is gross. I don't know why, I just can't stand anything "chicken soup" related anymore.

Meanwhile, I weighed today and I was 274.3. Hallelujah! Here we go!

I need to figure out how to pictures on here from my IPad.

I am going to try to go to the gym tonight, but I just hate going without my husband. And he works every night almost. But, I feel so much better. Actually, first I am getting a pedicure, because my feet are jacked up.

I need to make a weigh in day. Everyone seems to like Thursdays and Friday. Maybe I will start tomorrow!

First fill!

The wait at the doctor wasn't that bad today. I met a really nice lady who had the sleeve in December, and she has lost 75lbs! crazy!

I got my first fill today! 2cc's! He said he is worried I won't take a fill well, because of my episode with the air earlier.
But, I think I am okay. I am on liquids for today, puree in the morning, soft tomorrow night and normal by Friday afternoon. I am so excited. Hopefully we can get this show on the road!

I wish had taken a pic of my weight today, but it was 275. So, we will see from here!

Finally over the hump!

I have been sitting at 275.2 to 274.6 for about 2 weeks, and it was getting very frustrating.
Today, I finally hit 274.0. Not a big change, but the lowest since surgery.

I think my biggest problem is eating too late. My husband and I usually do not get home until 9pm, and then eat dinner. These last few days, I will eat before class about 5pm, and then just eat frozen yogurt before bed (my stomach gets so hungry by this time). I hope this is helping, and Aunt Flo left, so thats always good.
Hopefully, I will continue to lose and will get my first fill next Wednesday to get this thing really going!

1 Month

Yesterday was 1 month since the surgery. I am a little bummed. I have only lost about 24lbs. I fact, I haven't lost anything in about 2 weeks. I am hungry a lot, but get full quickly, but then hungry again. i guess 24lbs isn't bad, since I have read some bloggers are months out and only lost 30lbs. I have a least maintained, since I have been trying new foods.

Next week I go back. I am hoping to get a fill. Dr. Dewitt said after the first fill is when people drop the weight quickly.

One of my friends has asked me to be a bridesmaid in her April wedding. I haven't seen her since my wedding in December, and she did not know I had the Lap Band Surgery. Yesterday, she came and gave me a "Bridesmaid Binder". She said our dress fitting would be in August, and said we could pick any style dress, just same color. I said I would need to pick one that could be easily altered because I am losing weight. She said "Yes, I can tell you have lost some weight." I told her I had the lap band sx a month ago. 

So, I have three weddings in the next year and half to be apart of. Ginger's in April 2014, my little brother's in November 2014, and older brother in February 2015. I am very glad I had the surgery, because I would be dreading all these events. 

Ten Things Thursday

Never done one. No one reads this, so more for myself.

1. I cannot wait for a fill. I am starting to notice I am hungry more often. I drank some iced coffee this morning (low fat), and it helped keep me full until now. Now my stomach is growling, and hurts. I am hoping I get a fill in two weeks. 

2. I have plateaued, but I think its because I am hungry more. And Aunt Flo is visiting, and I always bloat.

3. I am going to Gatlinburg this weekend. Hopefully, we will do a lot of walking.

4. Next week, my husband and I are registering for The Color Run in September. I am so excited.

5. My husband is losing weight quicker than I am. Hate him, but love him.

6. I am looking for a new job. I love the pet clinic, but I need something in my field of study. I need a law firm job. Now that I am down about 25lbs, I feel a little better looking for professional clothes. 

7. We are trying to buy our first house. Cannot wait.

8. I need to go to the gym more. It is so hard, between jobs and school.

9. I want the following foods: salad, taco and hot dog. Not at one time, but I cannot wait until I can eat other food.

10. A good friend asked me to be a bridesmaid for her April 2014 wedding. I am wondering when we will order dresses, and what size will I be by then? I guess I need to get one that can be easily altered. Really excited though. November 2014, my younger brother is getting married, and I am a bridesmaid, and February 2015, older bro is getting married in New York, and I am a bridesmaid. I am excited that I will have a new body for these things!

I hate pharmaceutical reps!

Of course, today our Merial rep bring a dozen of the most delish looking doughnuts to work... I told a co worker how I wanted the chocolate one and the skinny ho (i mean that affectionately) says "well, maybe you can cut it up in tiny bites and slowly eat it." I tried to explain its not only that its "bread" but its a freakin doughnut!!!! I guess she thought she was being helpful...

I am getting tired of eating the same food. I want a hot dog, taco or salad soooo bad!!!

The skinny co worker told me to go to Wendy's and get a small Frosty. I don't think she understands the concept!

My husband is down 14lbs, I am so proud of him!!

I hope to be at 272 by Friday...I think that will be my official Weigh in day. Or maybe Monday, I always weigh less on Mondays....we will see.

Everyday weigh in :(

Most bloggers out there have a specific day they weigh in every week. I weigh in everyday. My GYN said this is good idea, and she does too, that way she can look back on the day and say "okay, I should change this" or whatever. 

As of this morning, I weigh 274.4lbs. My starting weight was 298.6lbs. A loss of 24.2lbs. 

Overall, pretty good I think. 

I eat a variety of foods and nothing makes me sick. Pasta, rice, potatoes....all that sort of stuff. I have done shredded chicken and some shrimp. All good.

Willie & I are exercising every chance we get, which is good. He is down about 10lbs. He is frustrated I am losing a lot quicker...but I did have surgery! Crazy man.

All in all going pretty good. 

1st Follow Up

After my incident with air in the band last week, the surgeon wanted to see me Wednesday instead of next week. My appointment was at 2:30pm. I did not get seen until 5:20pm. It was horrible! But apparently they had to rush a patient into the hospital, the reason for the delay. I left about 5:45.

Incisions look great. 

Losing weight at a good pace.

I can have smoothies!

I can have my Tea with Splenda!

All in all, pretty good. 

I did tell him I was concerned since I couldn't handle a little air in my band, how am I going to handle my first fill? He said with time it would be fine.

Next appointment June 19th. 

I am eating okay. Mashed potatoes, egg salad, chicken salad, potato salad, soup, jello, sugar free fudge pops, jello. 

I really want salad. He said that wouldn't be until week 6 or 7. 

I really want cereal. I don't know why.

A little better

Last week, was an awful week.

I was not handling my band and new life very well. I was hurting so much and couldn't eat, couldn't drink, couldn't sleep, couldn't do anything at all. I was waking up in horrible pain, and I could feel so much pressure in my chest and stomach. I was truly regretting my decision.

Friday morning I called the surgeon's office. Lori told me that complaints I was having she had not heard of, so she had Dr. Dewitt call me between surgeries. He did. He wanted to see me. I went to his office and waited about an hour for him to finish surgery. He put me under the fluoroscope. He said my band looked fine, right position, but he was concerned there may be fluid or air trapped in the band. 

There was air. He numbed my stomach, and took the air out. 

I could breath again!!!

He told me to take the weekend off and rest. Well, that didn't happen because I had to work Friday night at my parents restaurant, but I tried. I feel a lot better.

Now its horrible gas pains, and before I couldn't feel my port, now I do and its freaking me out.

But I am much better than last week. 

I am eating mashed potatoes, oatmeal, potato salad, chicken salad, pudding, popsicles. 

I get full without all the pain.

I have not been sick once. After reading some other bloggers about most food making them sick, I was really concerned, but since the surgery I have not once had a problem with it. 

Dr. Dewitt wants to see me again Wednesday. I know I won't get a fill yet, but will I be able to handle a fill if the air bothered me?

When can I have salad? I want one so bad. 

Even though I am not BFF's with my band yet, I am okay with it right now. I cried so much last week. 

BTW: I am down 20.4lbs in two weeks since pre-op diet. pretty good I guess. 

Regret

I am really starting to regret this decision. 

I feel miserable all the time. I can't sleep.

I am hardly eating, and I have gained a pound. 

I hate UNJURY chicken protein.

I hate trying to make time to take vitamins.

I really think I shouldn't have done.

How is it that the top of my stomach feels full but my stomach still has horrible hunger pains!?!

I woke my husband up at 4am crying because I want it gone.

My mom said it will be worth it.

I wish right now I hadn't done this.

4 days post op

The morning of surgery was....challenging.

1. My husband lost his wallet.

2. I forgot to pack my bag the night before in case I had to stay overnight.

3. I was still having regrets, and not wanting to do it.

4. When we arrived at one day surgery I realized I forgot to put my motion sickness on the back of my ear as instructed.

We arrived about 5:30 am. I was still dealing with the drinking of Magnesium from the day before. My husband is freaking because he thinks he forgot his wallet in a classroom the day before. About 7:15am, they call me back. I changed and the surgical nurse came and tried to put an IV in. Didn't work...and it hurt soooooo bad. I was crying. The anesthesia nurse came in and did it in one shot. But I was still crying. They went and got my mom to be with me a moment. My surgeon came in, told me to stop crying and that everything was going to be okay. Then my mom went to get Willie. Willie was upset that when they called me back, he was outside calling about his wallet. He stayed with me until about 9:30 when they wheeled me back. I was still crying. I remember the other nurse giving me something to relax in the elevator. I remember being in the OR, and then nothing until I woke up in recovery freaking out, saying I couldn't breathe. It was horrible. Luckily, I had a very nice recovery nurse, Agnes. She was so sweet, the little I remember. After some period of time, she wheeled me to a room. I remember her telling my new nurse, Brittany "Take care of my  beautiful child. I can't wait to see her in a few months. She is going to be a knockout with that beautiful hair and eyes." Brittany was also very sweet.

My mom left about 1:30pm, and my husband of course stayed the rest of the day, fielding calls from relatives and helping me. About 2:45pm, Dr. Dewitt came in, asked how I was doing. I was doing okay actually. No vomiting or even wanting to. I was in pain and had gas pain. I have 4 incisions. The only one that hurts is the biggest one, and I think that is where my port is. Dr. Dewitt said as soon as I did 8 laps I could go. And I did. By 6:30 I was ready to go. I was very impressed by all the hospital staff. 

We went by the pharmacy, got my scripts and went home. I got in the recliner because I couldn't' get on my sides. My husband slept on the couch beside me. All weekend he was very sweet and helpful, and never left my side. Over the weekend I got down maybe 2 popsicles and 1 jello and lots of water. Monday I had oatmeal, soup and mashed potatoes. All of which I kept down and did great. 

Last night, I had a lot of gas pains. I can sleep in the bed now. Still hurts to move around though. When I finally got good and comfortable it was time to wake up and go to work. Yes, I went to work. We don't have a large staff here, so when I am not here, that means one other person is having to work 12 hours. I think I may leave a 12, just because I am really uncomfortable. I have scheduled my follow up for May 29th.

I don't know how I feel about this. I am tired of the gas pains. I am down 18lbs. I could feel it when I put on my scrub pants this morning. I don't know, but I definitely do not want to eat. We will see in a couple of weeks I guess.

24 hours left...and I feel horrible

This whole not eating real food is a bummer. I have read other blogs and they don't seem to have as big a deal about it, like I have. I hate it. I feel horrible!!!!!!!!!! I want to eat sooooo bad! I love food. I love eating food. And, honestly, I am a little depressed about not being able to do that. I just have to remind myself that I rather be thinner.

Yesterday they did our pre-admission. They went over our history, we met with the anesthesiologist, they took blood, we had another nutrition class, met with the surgeon, met with Lori who gave me what time to be there, and met with another lady that gave me my scripts and my eat like a kid card.

Can I say that I am really not excited anymore? because I am really not. And I hate that. 

I sat and talked with my husband and cried. He said I can't some all this way and chicken out. 

I know that. 

I am going to do it, but I am not happy about it.

Yesterday, they had a chance for us to buy some of the Unjury Chicken flavored, which when I tasted it, was very good. Other bloggers have read about it, so I was excited about it. Well, they were sold out by the time I got to buy some. They gave me samples instead, which is fine. When I got home, I made myself some. It was good, but ever since then I have been real sick feeling. I don't know if it is just from being hungry or what, but I don't want anymore. 

I have lost 12lbs. I sat in bed thinking, maybe I shouldn't have it, and I can lose it on my own. But, if i had the chance I would got food last night that was healthy. Chik Fil A? Pizza? Captain D's? Any real food. 

but, here we go.....

6am tomorrow. I am dreading it. I hope this is normal. 

  

A very hard day.

I am down to 290.4. Sounds good, right?

I am miserable and hungry. Some bloggers had to do a two week liquid diet, and I do not know how y'all made it. My doctor had me start on Friday just protein, and then tomorrow I start the liquid only. For a food addict, this is so hard. I wanted pizza soooooooo bad yesterday. Or a sandwich. Either would be fine.
My husband said "google what happens if you cheat". I did. It convinced me not to.
I stopped at Publix after class and bought some already cooked shrimp and crab. I ate that, since it was on my approved list. My problem is, I am very much a "if I don't like it, I just rather not eat." Yesterday, on my way home from work, I was starving and stopped at Chik Fil A to get some grilled chicken nuggets. Those were disgusting. I was so irritable yesterday.

Today, I am a little better. Still hungry. Really hungry.

Meanwhile, I just read in the news that Chris Christie, the governor of New Jersey, secretly had lap band surgery in February! That's cool!

As I said, tomorrow starts the liquid diet. Shouldn't be too hard, because for most of the day I will be at the hospital doing pre op paperwork and what not, and then class tomorrow night.

Did I mention I was hungry?

I am sore and burnt

So far, I am sticking to the diet. We even went to our favorite place to eat for lunch and I had roasted chicken and green beans. We went to my in-laws so Willie could fix their computer, and I jumped in the tanning bed...a little too long.

We went a got the rest of my vitamins and some more supplies for the upcoming diet change. We also went to the gym for about 2 hours this evening. Willie cooked some veggies and shrimp, and it was actually pretty good.

We also weighed today... and I am already down 4lbs! Willie is down 6lbs!

I pray for strength to keep going.

Pre-Op Diet: Day One

So, here we go. The diet begins.

Yesterday we met with the personal trainer at Anytime Fitness. Great guy, very motivating. I felt like I was on an episode of the biggest loser. This "evaluation" was free. After we were done with our session came time to talk about the prices for his service. Drum roll.... $99 per person, per month and that's only one session a week. As much as I think it could be worth it, by bank account doesn't. Maybe when I am working in a law firm, or Willie get his raise, but not now. Looks like Willie & I will have to do it the old fashioned way. Luckily, the Zumba class I used to go to is on Thursdays, and night I haven't had free in over a year because of school. But this semester I get to go.

I tried to make an effort to get up early and cook me some eggs, but I straightened my hair instead. I won't be home again until about 11:00pm, so I ran out of time getting clothes together for job #2 this evening. Pictured is my breakfast. I brought another cottage cheese for lunch. This afternoon I can eat at my parent's restaurant, a chicken breast cooked in olive oil.

Starting weight: 298.6 (that is disgusting)

My Husband

Last night, I weighed my self on the new scale. I was astonished. 297.6. WTF?! This is terrible, but only reaffirmed my belief that I need this surgery. I am so embarrassed. Today we meet with the personal trainer, and he will take my weight. I was really worried, because I did not want Willie to know how much I truly weigh. Yes, he is my husband, but it doesn't matter.

Well, last night he got on the scale. Around our wedding he weighed 250lb. Now, 296.4. WTF! I guess we both gained together.

But now we are getting our crap together!

He made me go to the gym. He ran a mile. Yes, ran. I did the eliptical for 10min, bike for 10 and walked for 10. It's a step.

Tomorrow we start!!!!

Diet Confusion

My husband and I are going to go grocery shopping tonight or tomorrow, and I am trying to get a good list of food I can have during this process. As well as looking at me own list provided by the nutritionist, I am reading blogs, and the more I read, the more confused I get.

Problem #1: The pre-op liquid diet. I know protein is important, but I don't think I worry about that before the surgery...right? Just water (flavored), decaf tea/coffee, broths and juice if I feel week. And then directly after, it the same thing. When does the protein come in to the picture?

Problem #2: My guide says I can only have the above mentioned and jello and sugar free popsicles for the first week...what do I do about the protein? Do I worry about that when I go to mushies? Should I buy the powder? When do I start the protein drinks?

Hello? Is this thing on?

Problem #3: I have too much food in my house, and starting Friday, I can't eat hardly any of it. I need to have a dinner party tomorrow night to get rid of the junk!

On another note:
My husband and I are going to the gym today. I am dreading it already.

We are members of a gym!

My husband and I went to tour the Anytime Fitness yesterday in Trussville. It's a nice place, a little small, but I like it. Plus, we can go at anytime! So we signed up. I told the owner and the personal trainer that I am having Lap Band surgery next Friday, and explained to them that it is very important that I try to minimize the jiggly skin that may come. The personal trainer seems nice. He isn't intimidating, which makes me feel better. We have an "evaluation" appointment with him on Thursday. He will get out weight, BMI, body fat and measurements. This is great actually, because Friday I start my pre-op diet.

Willie & I (before I had a new surgery date) went to Sam's and we got terrible food. Now, we need to eat the food before Friday. My husband is starting Friday on his diet with me. I am so lucky to have a husband that is willing to go through this with me. He is my greatest support.

The cleaning is still going on. My husband and I have a 3 bedroom house. We do not have children so the extra rooms are our offices. His is more for video game crap and storage. Mine became a library and wedding headquarters. I have most cleaned out, and he does too, but we have to take all the junk the goodwill. We are trying to buy a house, so this will help in the moving process.

After we visited the gym last night, we went to Wal-Mart to buy a new scale. Of course you can't leave Wal-Mart without spending $100, so Willie also bought new running short, and a couple of shirts. I bought new workout pants and a pink tank (it's a little snug, but I want to take my progress pictures in it) and we went ahead and took care of my mother-in-law's Mother's Day present, and bought her a "Duck Dynasty" shirt, which she loves! Now, I have to get my mother something since my surgery is Mother's Day weekend.

I have a binder that includes all my surgery paperwork and guidelines, and bought a separate day planner that fits in the binder so I could write out when to eat what kind of food. My husband wants me to write it on the calendar in our kitchen, so he knows too. We have a great challenge ahead of us!

Women are excited, men are mad

More people know about my surgery than I ever intended.

I only wanted a few people to know because I was afraid of the reaction. So far, the women who know are encouraging. The men are mad and hate that I am doing it. They don't understand. Only my husband and step-dad are encouraging. It's not that they want me to have it, but they understand I want and need it.

Friday I start the pre-op diet of high protein, and low card foods. My husband has really jumped on the band wagon and decided he wants to go through this journey, sans band, with me. Today we are going to tour a local gym and hopefully join it. It is a 24 hours gym, which fits us because we are always so busy! I've got some grocery shopping to do this week, buy a new scale and the vitamins.

This weekend I had a wedding and a funeral to go to. Weird right? I had decided I would wear my favorite pair of black pants. They fit me when I had loss the 70lbs before, but I have been able to get in them as recently as February. Wedding was at 4:00pm Saturday afternoon, an hour away. At 12:30, I put them on...and nope. Wasn't happening. I had to run to Kohl's and buy a bigger size. I was so upset for 2 reasons: 1. I really wanted to wear the other pair, and I was very disappointed. 2. I did not want to spend the money on pants I would hopefully never wear again (except for the funeral the next day). But, I did buy a cute shirt that was a little snug, but actually supposed to be a bigger shirt.

Tonight: my last pizza and chicken alfredo.

Surgery Preparation

Two weeks from today, I will be pre-registering for my Lap Band surgery. In preparation, I will have to go on a high protein, low card diet starting May 3rd, and then May 8th I start a clear liquid only diet for the surgery on May 10th. I will not eat normally (and by normal I mean solid foods) for about 4-6 weeks. That is a crazy thought to me. This weekend I will go to the store, load up on prep food. The nutritionist also told us to try out different types of protein drinks to see which we will like. I've been scanning blogs to see what other banders did that week of surgery. It's going to be hard.

My second preparation is cleaning my house. I have too much junk. This week I am on break from school, so I am cleaning and clearing. I have already tossed two big boxes of clothes. I am getting rid of clothes that are already too big for me. I guess my way of saying "I will never be this big again!" A couple of years ago, I lost about 70lbs and bought jeans sized from 22 to 16 at the thrift store. I still have them packed away. I am keeping those as "goal pants". I am cleaning the entire house, because I know my family. The weekend after the surgery, they will crowd my house and I have a loving grandmother who will criticize my cleaning and organization. Also, bless my husband, and he will clean, but not the way I like, so I am going to give him the least there is to do. We are also trying to buy a house, so I am getting rid of as much junk as possible.

I start classes again on Monday. I am already behind on briefing classes. I plan to tell them about having surgery (not the type) and that way in case of any mishaps I will be clear to miss class the following couple of days the next week. My surgery is on Friday, so I hope to be okay enough to continue my normal routine on the following Monday.

I just keep telling my body, just a couple of more weeks.

I have a new and MUCH closer surgery date!

I have been "re-approved" and I have a soon surgery date!

Friday, May 10th!!!

I do my pre-register stuff on the 8th.

Very excited, but very nervous!!!!

Pre-surgical diet starts May 3rd.

New body, here I come!

Hope on the Horizon

I may have some change in my surgery date.

Apparently, BC/BS did not link my last 6 years of coverage with BC/BS to my new account with... BC/BS! How crazy! They do not use social security numbers anymore, so it doesn't automatically link itself.

The surgeon's case manager said she needs a letter stating I am good to go.

Today, when I get a little time a work, I am going to get on the phone and try to straighten this out. Hopefully I can have a much sooner date than 8 months & 2 days.


Update!: I called BCBS today, and the agent told me my account was updated on April 15. I DO NOT have a waiting period! I called the case manager, and she just called me. She is going to resubmit by info tomorrow! I hope this is my miracle!

8 months, 2 weeks, 4 days

I guess December 20th is definitely my surgery date. I am so heartbroken. I received a letter in the mail yesterday about being approved but having to finish the waiting period. I think this is ridiculous, considering I was with the same insurance company for 6 years prior to being on my husband's. My aunt who work at my insurance even had them send me a letter stating there wouldn't be a waiting period, but apparently that isn't valid. My aunt asked for a copy of my insurance card a couple of days ago, so I think she may be trying to work some magic.

I was just not prepared to spend the next 8 months in this body.

I am hoping for a miracle.

I have a surgery date!

but its 9 months away!


My surgery did get approved. BUT! since I wasn't on Willie's insurance until December 15, 2012 (when we got married) I cannot have the surgery until December 15, 2013.

My heart is broken. I do not want to spend another day like this.

So, here is the plan:

I am going to try and get down to 250lbs. At least, get some weight off of me.

And December 20th, I will have surgery.


I guess I'll be back in December!

Patience is not my virtue

I sent the last of my paperwork on Friday. It's Tuesday. No word. I am getting really anxious. I have so many things I am putting on hold because I don't know what kind of schedule I will have the next few months.

Will today be the day?

A Little Glitch

Lori called. I have come to dread her calling, because it seems every time she does, it is because I am missing some paperwork. She received all the paperwork from my doctor. Apparently I was missing a month of my supervised diet. Excuse me?

Apparently, "6 Months of Supervised Diet" in insurance terms translates to "7 Months of Supervised Diet". My weightloss clinic faxed over paperwork with only apparently January - June. But I was sure I went in July. In June I had done the "HCG" diet. It definitely works if you need to get a quick 20lbs off, but not sustainable. I remember going back when I finished and after my trip to Panama City Beach. Lori said I should go by there and talk with the people and make sure they faxed over everything, otherwise I would need to start completely over. This was not an option.

I went by this afternoon. Luckily, my favorite receptionist was there. She looked in my file, and she noticed they did not fax a separate sheet that included my b-12 injections and weight. Success! So that will be faxed to Lori in the AM. This was the last piece of my puzzle.

So, maybe Lori won't be busy tomorrow, and can enter my information and get a quick response. She said she would know immediately. She has done so many of these, that I am pretty confident she wouldn't enter it without knowing it would probably be accepted.

Still wishing for this birthday present. Two more days.

Almost there...I think...`

Lori called yesterday, and of course my phone was in the car. She did leave a message, thankfully. She has finally received my EKG report and my 6 month diet. These are things she is still waiting on:

1. My weight for 2010. Apparently the answering machine in the medical record department of my OB/GYN does not work. I have been trying to get in touch with them for about a week. She said I could bring a picture from then...but who the heck knows where that is.
2. A record of a 7th doctor visit. I don't understand what that means. I have been to American Family Care several times for bronchitis, and my car wreck so I need to call and see if this counts. Or if I can just get my GYN office to fax my 2010 visit does that count?

Plan for today, call the OB/GYN AGAIN! and call Lori.


Could I get some approval this week? and a surgery date????


btw: My birthday is this Saturday. Still thinking this for a perfect B'day present to myself.

and another wedding picture!

Wedding Photos!

After three months, I finally got my pictures back!

Meanwhile, I am still trying to get paperwork sent. The weightloss clinic is still in business and they refaxed all my stuff. And, I can't get a return phone call for the medical records dept of my doctor's office. The nurse verified I did go there in 2010. Waiting on a call back though.

People are dropping the ball

Lori called this morning. She said these are the things missing from my chart:

1. Weight from 2010 (why would the GYN give her the other years not that. I called and I was there, June 2010. Left message with the medical record dept.)
2. 6 month diet (I did the B12 injections, and after my initial consultation I went to that office and asked them to fax the paperwork. I saw the guy take my chart and said "no problem". Apparently it was. Wouldn't it be horrible if they went out of business. I called, and their answering machine works. Luckily it is located near my house, so I can run by if I have to.)
3. EKG Results ( not my issue. I guess the lazy doctor who made me wait for him to show up is apparently taking his time on this too.)

So, I have a day of phone calls ahead of me.

On the bright side, when she gets all my paperwork Lori said she enters the info on the internet, and automatically will know if I am approved and can set a surgery date. How wonderful!

The word "tired" does not even begin to describe it.

I am exhausted. Between two jobs, and law school I am exhausted. My body aches and I just want to sleep. I know a lot of my body aching is from my weight, but it doesn't help that it's being pulled in 20 different directions.

Still no word. Lori did call me yesterday, but I was away from my cell phone, so I will call again this morning and leave her another message to call me. Even if they approved me today, it probably won't be until April that I would have the surgery. I only have three weeks left of classes, and then a week of finals. If I am stressed now, I would need Zoloft or Xanax if I had surgery between now and finals. After finals, I will have a week off, so that would probably be my choice. Luckily, my boss is VERY flexible with me, so if I needed a couple of extra days that week he would work with me.

Meanwhile, I am just plugging along. Taxes, briefs, laundry, work #1, work #2, and my some punk kids hit mine and my neighbors mailboxes. At least they hurt their hand, because mine is made of steel (my husband made it) and when you hit it with a baseball bat you bout shatter your hand.

Hopefully if I talk with Lori today, I can get some sort of timeline of when things will be sent to BCBS, and how long approval takes.

I am not a doctor, because I don't have patience. That's why I am in Law School.

It's been a week since my cardiologist appointment, the final "hurdle" before being sent to the insurance for approval. Lori told me I could call her after I completed everything if I wanted to. I didn't want to bother her, so I didn't. But my anxiousness got the best of me. Yesterday I called, and she is on vacation this week and won't be back until Monday. Although I am very impatient, it's cool. I know in my brain, that I won't hear anything immediately, but I want this so badly.

This morning at work, I weighed myself. I refuse to believe at the Cardiologist I was 293lbs. I mean, I have never been that big. the scale here said 288lbs. Have I lost or was the scale wrong? The scale at work has a tendency to be off, but usually it says you weigh more than you actually do. So, let's say I lost 5lbs. I'll take that. Even though my breakfast is Pop Tart Smores and a Diet Mtn Dew. Hey, I can't have them much longer. Enjoy while I can...maybe the cause of the weight gain?

I did leave Lori a message to call me at her earliest convenience. She is so reassuring with all my crazy questions.

I better news, my aunt texted me yesterday. My cousin, Jamie is 6 weeks pregnant. She and her husband have wanted this for so long, and I am so excited for them.

Random thought: I need to buy a new scale. The one at home, is just a cheap one from Walmart and I want to be as accurate as possible.

It's important to have goals, do you have a goal?

Okay, so I haven't heard anything yes. Don't expect to for a week or so, but I can go ahead and set goals...right?

10lbs lost - new running shoes

20lbs lost - new sunglasses

30lbs lost - new purse

50lbs lost - BSL Sweatshirt (my law school. i really want one, but not a 2X)

80lbs lost - boots, of my calves will allow.

100lbs lost - new clothes

I know I will buy new clothes along the way, but I am a big thrift store person, which is probably going to be my main source, so when/if I lose 100lbs, I will be pretty close to my first goal and can buy some good clothes.

I hope to add to the goals, but those are my main things.

Now my "body goals":

Collar bones
Slimmer calves (for the boots!)
Slimmer ankles
Chin (singular)

My birthday is in 18 days. The go ahead for this surgery would be a great present.

Pictures

As I am sitting here at work...very bored, I wanted to post some pictures.

The first one is of me and my husband on our Honeymoon.
The second on is me on my bridal portraits.
The third is our save the date picture from last summer. (My smallest weight, 250lbs. I was on an HCG diet)
The last one is me and my sisters in law one year ago at about 270lbs.

My heart's in it!

Today was my cardiologist appointment. It was scheduled at 9am. The nurse took me back and weighed me. I was astonished. 293lbs. What has happened? I have exploded!!!! Just to think, in July I was 250lbs. this is ridiculous. She checked my blood pressure, which was perfect. Then did the EKG. Then I had to wait for almost 2 hours for the doctor to show up. He said my EKG was fine and I looked very healthy for surgery.


Now the waiting game for Lori to get all the paperwork and send it to the insurance.


On a really good note, my husband and I won the contest and got 2 free nights in Gatlinburg. Now just to decided when we can use it. My birthday is coming up!!!!


I need this surgery!!!!

Nutrition Class and PT Assessment

This morning I had the PT Assessment and Nutrition class.

The PT was really pointless for me. There was about 7 people in the group with me, and I was by far the youngest. But, the "exercise guy" who did the talking basically showed us exercise machines and lectured us on gym etiquette, which I am very familiar with. Although overweight, I have frequented gyms and own an elliptical. Other than that he talked about posture and buying shoes. He talked for about 1 & 1/5 hours...I honestly almost fell asleep. He treated everyone as if they had never seen exercise equipment, and talked down to us. He tried to be funny...but it didn't work.

Next was the dietician. She was very informative and very helpful. She went over the pre-op diet and the post op diet for the first 12 weeks. She did her homework! She gave a list of stores and what brand of protein drinks they carried along with the grams of protein in them. VERY HELPFUL! And she gave us the list of vitamins, along with the stores that carry them. She answered many questions and made me feel better about the post op diet.

Now, I have an EKG appointment Friday morning. Hopefully everything will go as planned and I can be making an appointment for surgery.

Thursday my husband and I will find out if we won and trip to Gatlinburg. We sent in our picture and the one with the most likes of Facebook wins, which is currently us! ( we are ahead by 25 likes!) Now, do I want to go before surgery, and eat like a pig? Or after and maybe look thinner in pictures? Decisions, decisions...

What now?

Yesterday I got to thinking...after all these little tests and exams, then what happens?

I called Lori, and she explained to me that as soon as she has all me results she send it to the insurance, and as soon as they okay it we make a surgery appointment.

Wow...that fast?

I want it to happen fast, but then again, I am scared.

I am not crazy!

I met with Dr. Dewitt in late January. He is such a nice guy! And his case manager and nurse are very sweet and helpful. Dr. Dewitt thinks I can be very successful with the surgery.

That day they ran bloodwork on me, which I was not expecting at all. My body does not give up blood well. A week later, a nurse calls and my vitamin D is low, and I have to take a vitamin once a week.

The next step was for Lori, the "go to lady" for Dr. Dewitt, to schedule things required for the surgery: psych exam, nutrition class, PT Assessment,and EKG.

Today was my psych exam. My co pay was $300! But the total was $900, so I guess that is okay. They told be to prepare to be there for 3-5 hours. The day started terribly! I was running late, horrific traffic, and my work called to tell me the girl who I got to cover for me was already an HOUR late! I was hoping they didn't take my blood pressure, I would've failed.

First, the assistant took me in an office, and I had to repeat words he called out to me (which I passed) and then I took a 20 minute "brain teaser" quiz. Next, I was taken into a room to take a personality test, ink blot test, eating habit quiz...and more personality tests. It took me about an hour and fifteen minutes to complete them (which the assistant said was pretty fast). I then met with the psychologist. She talked with me about some issues that came up on my personality tests, but overall she thinks I am a good candidate for the Lap Band surgery. She went over the three things that can cause failure after the surgery:

1. Sodas ( my beloved tea with Splenda is okay!!!)
2. Sugar ( especially sugar drinks, I.e apple juice)
3. Grazing

She said it will take about 2 days for Dr. Dewitt's office to receive her letter, but as far as mental health, I am good to go!

Next, Feb. 27, I have a nutrition class, and PT assessment. Then, March 1 the EKG.

Then....I don't know...just waiting...

Now a bridesmaid...

My older brother is getting married February 2015.


His fiancée asked me to be a bridesmaid.


I really really hope I get this surgery....

waiting....

My Appointment for my first consultation is in one week. I am so nervous and excited.

I feel like I am getting bigger by the day. I really feel this urge to eat better, but we were warned at the seminar that if we lose any weight, we might not qualify.

I am sick of myself and very uncomfortable.

If/when I have the surgery I am not telling anyone but need to know people: my husband, my mom, my grandmother, my aunt and my boss(only because he will want to know why I need time off). My father-in-law had the gastric bypass about 5 years ago. Although he lost a lot of weight, he is still a large guy. I probably could look to him for advice, but I honestly do not want many people to know.

I hope I qualify. I am officially on my husabands insurance which covers the surgery. I think I meet the guidelines...


I guess I will know more next Tuesday afternoon.

Appointment made!!

On Thursday my aunt and I went to the Lap Band seminar by Dr. Dewitt. It was very informative, and made me feel like the surgery was, and is, my only option. The nurse, Lori, who heads up the insurance end told everyone to make sure you insurance covers bariatric surgery. Currently, I am on my own insurance at my work and having checked about a year ago, I was confident I was good. My aunt is an chief accountant at Blue Cross here is Alabama, and she told me to go online and double check. I did. And, I'm not covered. I was shocked. It was a change that occurred within the last few months. I was totally disappointed. I had planned to get on my husbands insurance anyway, so I checked his contract terms, and his does cover. But would it cover me? My aunt checked with BCBS, and they issued me a certificate that there would not be a waiting period, however I only had 30 days for the wedding to enroll with Willie's company. We were at day 20. My aunt also talked with the Chief Medical Officer about the risks of surgery. She stressed the risks and the important of realizing it is a life change. I'm ready. I don't want to be this way 3 years from now. She also went over the requirements: 1. Height and weight and consultation with bariatric surgeon. ( appt. made!) 2. 3 years of documented obesity (done!) 3. 6 months of doctor monitored diet (done!) 4. No smoking within 6 months of surgery (done!) My husband turned in our paperwork this morning, and I am paid with my insurance at my job until the end of the month, so there is no lapse in coverage. My appointment for my first consultation in January 29. Here we go... Hopefully!

A New Year, and Hopefully a Journey to a New Me

This isn't a blog I ever expect anyone else to read, but nonetheless I am writing it. I am currently a full time receptionist at a veterinary clinic, a part time waitress at my parents restaurant, a full time law student, and a full time wife to my new husband. Busy.So, why am I so overweight?I always have been. I may not have time to sleep or shop or see friends...but I make time to eat.My husband is wonderful. He started dating me when I was about 50lbs lighter, together we gained.I currently weigh 280lbs. Two years ago I was 300lbs, and lost 70lbs on the b-12 injections. Those are expensive. I gained it all back.I put off my wedding for 2 years to lose weight. Finally at the beginning of 2012, I decided this was ridiculous and started planning a wedding. My weight got down to 250lb in July, but steadily we back up as wedding stress and the law school stress set in. On December 15, 2012, I got married to the greatest man, Willie.I decided there was not more putting off what I had been thinking about for the past 5 years...I wanted the lap band surgery.On Dec. 6, I went to my "girly doctor" and she recommended a doctor her sister in law is using for the surgery. Per insurance stipulations I must attend a seminar on January 3rd with Dr. DeWitt. I am excited and nervous, and hope and pray I can have this surgery ASAP. I am tired of this body.