Now a bridesmaid...

My older brother is getting married February 2015.


His fiancée asked me to be a bridesmaid.


I really really hope I get this surgery....

waiting....

My Appointment for my first consultation is in one week. I am so nervous and excited.

I feel like I am getting bigger by the day. I really feel this urge to eat better, but we were warned at the seminar that if we lose any weight, we might not qualify.

I am sick of myself and very uncomfortable.

If/when I have the surgery I am not telling anyone but need to know people: my husband, my mom, my grandmother, my aunt and my boss(only because he will want to know why I need time off). My father-in-law had the gastric bypass about 5 years ago. Although he lost a lot of weight, he is still a large guy. I probably could look to him for advice, but I honestly do not want many people to know.

I hope I qualify. I am officially on my husabands insurance which covers the surgery. I think I meet the guidelines...


I guess I will know more next Tuesday afternoon.

Appointment made!!

On Thursday my aunt and I went to the Lap Band seminar by Dr. Dewitt. It was very informative, and made me feel like the surgery was, and is, my only option. The nurse, Lori, who heads up the insurance end told everyone to make sure you insurance covers bariatric surgery. Currently, I am on my own insurance at my work and having checked about a year ago, I was confident I was good. My aunt is an chief accountant at Blue Cross here is Alabama, and she told me to go online and double check. I did. And, I'm not covered. I was shocked. It was a change that occurred within the last few months. I was totally disappointed. I had planned to get on my husbands insurance anyway, so I checked his contract terms, and his does cover. But would it cover me? My aunt checked with BCBS, and they issued me a certificate that there would not be a waiting period, however I only had 30 days for the wedding to enroll with Willie's company. We were at day 20. My aunt also talked with the Chief Medical Officer about the risks of surgery. She stressed the risks and the important of realizing it is a life change. I'm ready. I don't want to be this way 3 years from now. She also went over the requirements: 1. Height and weight and consultation with bariatric surgeon. ( appt. made!) 2. 3 years of documented obesity (done!) 3. 6 months of doctor monitored diet (done!) 4. No smoking within 6 months of surgery (done!) My husband turned in our paperwork this morning, and I am paid with my insurance at my job until the end of the month, so there is no lapse in coverage. My appointment for my first consultation in January 29. Here we go... Hopefully!

A New Year, and Hopefully a Journey to a New Me

This isn't a blog I ever expect anyone else to read, but nonetheless I am writing it. I am currently a full time receptionist at a veterinary clinic, a part time waitress at my parents restaurant, a full time law student, and a full time wife to my new husband. Busy.So, why am I so overweight?I always have been. I may not have time to sleep or shop or see friends...but I make time to eat.My husband is wonderful. He started dating me when I was about 50lbs lighter, together we gained.I currently weigh 280lbs. Two years ago I was 300lbs, and lost 70lbs on the b-12 injections. Those are expensive. I gained it all back.I put off my wedding for 2 years to lose weight. Finally at the beginning of 2012, I decided this was ridiculous and started planning a wedding. My weight got down to 250lb in July, but steadily we back up as wedding stress and the law school stress set in. On December 15, 2012, I got married to the greatest man, Willie.I decided there was not more putting off what I had been thinking about for the past 5 years...I wanted the lap band surgery.On Dec. 6, I went to my "girly doctor" and she recommended a doctor her sister in law is using for the surgery. Per insurance stipulations I must attend a seminar on January 3rd with Dr. DeWitt. I am excited and nervous, and hope and pray I can have this surgery ASAP. I am tired of this body.