Ten Things Thursday

Never done one. No one reads this, so more for myself.

1. I cannot wait for a fill. I am starting to notice I am hungry more often. I drank some iced coffee this morning (low fat), and it helped keep me full until now. Now my stomach is growling, and hurts. I am hoping I get a fill in two weeks. 

2. I have plateaued, but I think its because I am hungry more. And Aunt Flo is visiting, and I always bloat.

3. I am going to Gatlinburg this weekend. Hopefully, we will do a lot of walking.

4. Next week, my husband and I are registering for The Color Run in September. I am so excited.

5. My husband is losing weight quicker than I am. Hate him, but love him.

6. I am looking for a new job. I love the pet clinic, but I need something in my field of study. I need a law firm job. Now that I am down about 25lbs, I feel a little better looking for professional clothes. 

7. We are trying to buy our first house. Cannot wait.

8. I need to go to the gym more. It is so hard, between jobs and school.

9. I want the following foods: salad, taco and hot dog. Not at one time, but I cannot wait until I can eat other food.

10. A good friend asked me to be a bridesmaid for her April 2014 wedding. I am wondering when we will order dresses, and what size will I be by then? I guess I need to get one that can be easily altered. Really excited though. November 2014, my younger brother is getting married, and I am a bridesmaid, and February 2015, older bro is getting married in New York, and I am a bridesmaid. I am excited that I will have a new body for these things!

I hate pharmaceutical reps!

Of course, today our Merial rep bring a dozen of the most delish looking doughnuts to work... I told a co worker how I wanted the chocolate one and the skinny ho (i mean that affectionately) says "well, maybe you can cut it up in tiny bites and slowly eat it." I tried to explain its not only that its "bread" but its a freakin doughnut!!!! I guess she thought she was being helpful...

I am getting tired of eating the same food. I want a hot dog, taco or salad soooo bad!!!

The skinny co worker told me to go to Wendy's and get a small Frosty. I don't think she understands the concept!

My husband is down 14lbs, I am so proud of him!!

I hope to be at 272 by Friday...I think that will be my official Weigh in day. Or maybe Monday, I always weigh less on Mondays....we will see.

Everyday weigh in :(

Most bloggers out there have a specific day they weigh in every week. I weigh in everyday. My GYN said this is good idea, and she does too, that way she can look back on the day and say "okay, I should change this" or whatever. 

As of this morning, I weigh 274.4lbs. My starting weight was 298.6lbs. A loss of 24.2lbs. 

Overall, pretty good I think. 

I eat a variety of foods and nothing makes me sick. Pasta, rice, potatoes....all that sort of stuff. I have done shredded chicken and some shrimp. All good.

Willie & I are exercising every chance we get, which is good. He is down about 10lbs. He is frustrated I am losing a lot quicker...but I did have surgery! Crazy man.

All in all going pretty good. 

1st Follow Up

After my incident with air in the band last week, the surgeon wanted to see me Wednesday instead of next week. My appointment was at 2:30pm. I did not get seen until 5:20pm. It was horrible! But apparently they had to rush a patient into the hospital, the reason for the delay. I left about 5:45.

Incisions look great. 

Losing weight at a good pace.

I can have smoothies!

I can have my Tea with Splenda!

All in all, pretty good. 

I did tell him I was concerned since I couldn't handle a little air in my band, how am I going to handle my first fill? He said with time it would be fine.

Next appointment June 19th. 

I am eating okay. Mashed potatoes, egg salad, chicken salad, potato salad, soup, jello, sugar free fudge pops, jello. 

I really want salad. He said that wouldn't be until week 6 or 7. 

I really want cereal. I don't know why.

A little better

Last week, was an awful week.

I was not handling my band and new life very well. I was hurting so much and couldn't eat, couldn't drink, couldn't sleep, couldn't do anything at all. I was waking up in horrible pain, and I could feel so much pressure in my chest and stomach. I was truly regretting my decision.

Friday morning I called the surgeon's office. Lori told me that complaints I was having she had not heard of, so she had Dr. Dewitt call me between surgeries. He did. He wanted to see me. I went to his office and waited about an hour for him to finish surgery. He put me under the fluoroscope. He said my band looked fine, right position, but he was concerned there may be fluid or air trapped in the band. 

There was air. He numbed my stomach, and took the air out. 

I could breath again!!!

He told me to take the weekend off and rest. Well, that didn't happen because I had to work Friday night at my parents restaurant, but I tried. I feel a lot better.

Now its horrible gas pains, and before I couldn't feel my port, now I do and its freaking me out.

But I am much better than last week. 

I am eating mashed potatoes, oatmeal, potato salad, chicken salad, pudding, popsicles. 

I get full without all the pain.

I have not been sick once. After reading some other bloggers about most food making them sick, I was really concerned, but since the surgery I have not once had a problem with it. 

Dr. Dewitt wants to see me again Wednesday. I know I won't get a fill yet, but will I be able to handle a fill if the air bothered me?

When can I have salad? I want one so bad. 

Even though I am not BFF's with my band yet, I am okay with it right now. I cried so much last week. 

BTW: I am down 20.4lbs in two weeks since pre-op diet. pretty good I guess. 

Regret

I am really starting to regret this decision. 

I feel miserable all the time. I can't sleep.

I am hardly eating, and I have gained a pound. 

I hate UNJURY chicken protein.

I hate trying to make time to take vitamins.

I really think I shouldn't have done.

How is it that the top of my stomach feels full but my stomach still has horrible hunger pains!?!

I woke my husband up at 4am crying because I want it gone.

My mom said it will be worth it.

I wish right now I hadn't done this.

4 days post op

The morning of surgery was....challenging.

1. My husband lost his wallet.

2. I forgot to pack my bag the night before in case I had to stay overnight.

3. I was still having regrets, and not wanting to do it.

4. When we arrived at one day surgery I realized I forgot to put my motion sickness on the back of my ear as instructed.

We arrived about 5:30 am. I was still dealing with the drinking of Magnesium from the day before. My husband is freaking because he thinks he forgot his wallet in a classroom the day before. About 7:15am, they call me back. I changed and the surgical nurse came and tried to put an IV in. Didn't work...and it hurt soooooo bad. I was crying. The anesthesia nurse came in and did it in one shot. But I was still crying. They went and got my mom to be with me a moment. My surgeon came in, told me to stop crying and that everything was going to be okay. Then my mom went to get Willie. Willie was upset that when they called me back, he was outside calling about his wallet. He stayed with me until about 9:30 when they wheeled me back. I was still crying. I remember the other nurse giving me something to relax in the elevator. I remember being in the OR, and then nothing until I woke up in recovery freaking out, saying I couldn't breathe. It was horrible. Luckily, I had a very nice recovery nurse, Agnes. She was so sweet, the little I remember. After some period of time, she wheeled me to a room. I remember her telling my new nurse, Brittany "Take care of my  beautiful child. I can't wait to see her in a few months. She is going to be a knockout with that beautiful hair and eyes." Brittany was also very sweet.

My mom left about 1:30pm, and my husband of course stayed the rest of the day, fielding calls from relatives and helping me. About 2:45pm, Dr. Dewitt came in, asked how I was doing. I was doing okay actually. No vomiting or even wanting to. I was in pain and had gas pain. I have 4 incisions. The only one that hurts is the biggest one, and I think that is where my port is. Dr. Dewitt said as soon as I did 8 laps I could go. And I did. By 6:30 I was ready to go. I was very impressed by all the hospital staff. 

We went by the pharmacy, got my scripts and went home. I got in the recliner because I couldn't' get on my sides. My husband slept on the couch beside me. All weekend he was very sweet and helpful, and never left my side. Over the weekend I got down maybe 2 popsicles and 1 jello and lots of water. Monday I had oatmeal, soup and mashed potatoes. All of which I kept down and did great. 

Last night, I had a lot of gas pains. I can sleep in the bed now. Still hurts to move around though. When I finally got good and comfortable it was time to wake up and go to work. Yes, I went to work. We don't have a large staff here, so when I am not here, that means one other person is having to work 12 hours. I think I may leave a 12, just because I am really uncomfortable. I have scheduled my follow up for May 29th.

I don't know how I feel about this. I am tired of the gas pains. I am down 18lbs. I could feel it when I put on my scrub pants this morning. I don't know, but I definitely do not want to eat. We will see in a couple of weeks I guess.